Archive for July, 2008

Murderball

Posted in Uncategorized on July 21, 2008 by rememberingandshuddering

Ideas will come running out of my head all at once and I won’t be able to pick them up and stack them in an orderly fashion. My ideas remain unorganized, unkempt, like lego pieces strewn across the floor, in the wake of post-christmas  cookie eating frenzy  I’ll get caught up in IM conversations, or news articles, or just mindless internet browsing.

But some things stick with you. Some things reorder everything, for a brief moment, they crystallize, re-prioritize.

Watching Murderball gives me that feeling. Everything is the way it should be, and I wish it could stay forever.  When I was dreaming of the olympics, being there, seeing everything, achieving that dream, I watched Murderball like 1x week. I wanted to punish myself so much, just like the murderballers. I loved it. Nobility was alive and kicking. There was something that was sacred. Nothing mattered except winning, losing, and your path there.

Now, mind you, I wouldn’t dream of comparing myself to the gentlemen chronicled in these tales. They will always have the perspective, the perseverance, and the temerity to give a big f$% you to their entire situation and go be Olympians.

But I loved seeing how someone else could do it. How someone else could drag themselves around each day and enjoy the struggle that much. How they could be in a freakin wheelchair and still pound the hell of themselves. Work for something with so little monetary reward, but something so true.

I loved the struggle when I was rowing. I loved killing myself. Somewhere along the way I lost it. It was my firefly in the dark, my bat signal, my inner-ear equilibrium. Now that I’ve cut those ties, I can’t find my way back to something that I care about nearly as much.

Go see the movie. Perhaps I’ll write more on it later.

For now, it was late and I was tired.

Couldn’t let this go by without posting. Postsecret, you do it again.

Posted in Uncategorized on July 20, 2008 by rememberingandshuddering
I'd like to think this will someday be true for me

I'd like to think this will someday be true for me.

I have my doubts.

Environmental Activists are apparently to blame for….everything.

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , on July 20, 2008 by rememberingandshuddering
"We can rewrite history!" "We can do it"

"We can rewrite history!" "We can do it"

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/07/17/AR2008071701841.html

Throughout history, there have been all sorts of catastrophes. I’m talking Spanish Inquisition, Holocaust, Crusades, Chernobyl/Three Mile Island, Trail of Tears level (yes, I equate environmental degradation, global warming, and the destruction of our planet with these events). None of these were happy catastrophes. I’ll go out on a limb and wager catastrophes can never be considered happy (It is possible for catastrophes to be hipster, “Stuff that White People Like” ironically happy, but I digress).

However, relatively, these events could have been a lot happier if they didn’t have the backing of their own clap louder cheering squad of supporters and deniers. I.E. Henry Ford and the Holocaust. Religion and….Spanish Inquisition, Crusades, everything else.

Thanks for forcing our collective heads into the sand about the state of our planet goes out to many groups and individuals: oil companies, K stree lobbyists, the GOP. But most importantly, thanks to the media. This national conversation will never come to be as long as they are paid off by our overlords and we keep referencing them as balanced, fair, and a complete source of information.

I’ll let a fabulous blogger named John Cole take over from here, I cannot summon the necessary consternation that this terrible op-ed deserves. It is past midnight on this Monday morning in July, and I am stranded on my urban heat island with no possibility of rescue from a friendly ac unit – unless that unit wants to work for free or is hooked up to a solar panel. As it is I’m paying $200/month for the privilege of running the dishwasher and looking at my gmail a few times/day.

Today’s evidence is this Michael Gerson op-ed, in which he opens with a story about the endangered polar bears, threatened by climate change, and informs us that their worst enemy is… environmental activists:

Once, the main threat to these creatures came from hunters who lived in lonely shacks and set traps along the ocean shore. Now a threat comes from an unexpected source: elements of the environmental movement, whose political blindness and ideological baggage may undermine efforts to reduce the role of carbon in the global economy.

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Some Republicans and conservatives are prone to an ideologically motivated skepticism. On AM talk radio, where scientific standards are not particularly high, the attitude seems to be: “If Al Gore is upset about carbon, we must need more of it.” Gore’s partisan, conspiratorial anger is annoying, yet not particularly relevant to the science of this issue.

This points, however, to a broader problem. Any legislation ambitious enough to cut carbon emissions significantly and encourage new energy technologies will require a broad political and social consensus. Nothing this complex and expensive gets done on a party-line vote. Yet many environmental leaders seem unpracticed at coalition-building. They tend to be conventionally, if not radically, liberal. They sometimes express a deep distrust for capitalism and hostility to the extractive industries. Their political strategy consists mainly of the election of Democrats. Most Republican environmental efforts are quickly pronounced “too little, too late.”

Got it? Environmental activists are to blame for not working enough with the people who oppose them, denounce them, mock them, work openly to sabotage their efforts, and have created a cottage industry creating and spreading pseudo-scientific babble.

What twisted bastard at the Washington Post reviews these op-eds and thinks they are worth printing? What kind of jackass believes the real problem regarding the environment is the environmental movement, and not James Inhofe. This is like blaming doctors for not being willing enough to work with the tobacco industry to prevent cancer.

I don’t know why anyone reads the Washington Post op-ed pages anymore. Just a disgrace.

From: http://www.balloon-juice.com/?p=10880

Listings

Posted in Uncategorized on July 20, 2008 by rememberingandshuddering

A list for a moist, hazy, sitting in the front of the fan listening to The Who, July Sunday night in Philadelphia:

1. Write in the blog everyday. Edit all you want. But accept that that whatever you write may never be good enough. Click “Publish” anyway.

2. Play Piano for at least an hour/day. (I’ve been saying this for about 3 months now, I usually average about 4/week).

3. Crush on someone again. Believe spending time with them is the best thing you can do with yourself at that very moment. Actually believe it. Know it. Like you did in high school. When you fell in love and didn’t want anything more out of it.

4. Be wide-eyed. Be cynical. Know that balancing these things are like juggling emotional chainsaws. It’s almost impossible, and even if you have tons and tons of practice and training and experience, know that at any moment, the breeze will blow the wrong way and you’ll slip.

5. Slipping does not equal failure.

6. Keep the list-writing to a minimum.